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Heidi Lopez

Heidi, a petite girl with a fair complexion and vivacious smile, was my classmate when I was in 1st year college during the school year of 1985. She is simply beautiful and energetic. My world becomes so marvelous and my life for the first time then was euphoric every time I saw her. I didn’t know what hit me. I guessed that I had a crush on her or infatuated to her sweet smile.

I knew in my heart that I liked her, however my mind kept telling me that it was not yet the right time to have a girlfriend because of the following reasons:

• I just started college and it was unfair to my mother who was working so hard to make sure that I could finish my schooling. She will be devastated if she will know that I focus myself to this young lady rather than my schooling.
• I was afraid to tell her my feelings. I am afraid that she might reject me, which could result to frustration and affect my studies.
• I had no money. In my mind, gifts like chocolate and flowers are very essential for every courtship. Where in the hell I could find such amount of money to finance this adventure.
• As far as I knew she was rich. Being poor like me could have a negative impact in case I decided to court her.

To make the story short, I kept and hid my feeling to her and concentrated more on my studies and works. The next school semester I learnt that she was not in a block section anymore. Thus, she will not be my classmate. I guessed that this would quickly help me to forget her.

Time runs fast. I was taking my class-card in one of the subjects in my last semester of 1988 school year; I saw her standing by the door. She had changed from a young girl into a woman. She looked more beautiful wearing make-up and fashionable dress. I stared at her looking on how she came out from her cocoon and turned into a stunning lady.

You are probably telling me that it is now the proper time to court her and exploit my new horizon. But, fate had made things different; I am now seeing a new girl who eventually became my wife. Perhaps, my future wife had seen something in me that she had made sure that well I should belong to her and vice versa.

I put up a lot courage and decided to visit Heidi in the dormitory with a plan to tell her my real feelings. Guess what!! She had just left and went back to her home town – Nueva Ejica and nowhere to be found. For Heidi wherever you are, thank you for the little memories that you had shared with me. It could be irrelevant to you but your face and personality had been scribed in my mind. In my mind, you will always stay young and vibrant forever.

If I had only a time machine, I wish I would be back to the time when you were still my classmate and rearranged everything. Who knows, she could be very happy right now and she never even give a though or damn on me. Heidi is just part of my life to rekindle and presently I am very much happy with my wife and daughter.

posted by Asthong Kutchong @ 9:05 AM